I’ve been up since dawn because my darn neighbour has been renovating his house for 2 years and it seems to have no end…and he gets up at dawn to drill a damn hole in the wall. What is up with that?

 

So this post comes to you from a mixture of sleep grumpies, moustaches, reflection and a pinch of joy. For that reflection part, I’ve realised that throughout this year so far I’ve become a much more negative person. Personally, I strive to be positive and look at the better side of things…but lately everything seems dull and terrible. Is this when you’re supposed to spice up your life? Take up a new hobby? I think I might be just tired. I’m really looking forward to the time after my exams so I can just relax without any pressure (well, there will still be that annoying voice at the back of my head screaming “university!!”) and on top of that I can exercise and deal with fangirl-ing. Not that I haven’t been trying to juggle those things already…
I’ve said this to some people before, that I’ve totally slacked off for Rocketboxx because of school. Someone told me that it was a pretty fair trade off, since for the other 5 years of my high school life I was pretty much consumed with Kevin/Cynostar/Rocketboxx. Holy crap on a cracker, now that I’ve written it out…my high school life is my fangirl-ing life span with Kevin. That’s beside the point, I’ve worked harder than this before for RB and this year, it hasn’t happened. I plan to sprint to the finish line of the year because, so far, I’ve been crawling. I remember the years I used to know everything and be in line, be with the fans, be with the boys (figuratively; for the record, I’ve never been with the boys). Making that UCC happen back then was the most memorable because it was so successful and it was actually kind of fun. I haven’t seen fans work together so well ever since…it was so nice. And I had fun…can you believe that? Looking back, the present is always more tedious than the past. Right now it seems like there are holes everywhere and I’m trying to cover it up with flowers, bandaids and donuts for the time being. So the main goal in mind, pull up my socks before the year ends. I’m going to make it happen! I’m going to put on some fireworks/waterworks/whatever. (Would you look at that…I haven’t completely lost my positive spirit!)
Self-reflection kind-of out of the way.
I think I’m more positive today because it’s always nice to know when you’re appreciated. Although I wasn’t there last night, some fabulous little birdies happened to ask Kiseop if he knew RB and…he did! Sometimes, you work hard to the point where you don’t know if it’s true…doubt builds up and you feel like your actions are so pointless…and then it’s all washed away! Actually I don’t know what I’m talking about. What I’m trying to say is that I am happy that he knows. At least he knows we’re out there trying to get more people to love him and U-KISS. At least…that will keep me running for a while.

16 days until it’s ALL officially over. 19 days until I see my husband. something-days until I get my lovely light up sign from Minnie (Thank you, if you happen to read this!). And…however-many-long-days until I will finally be able to say “Everything is alright”.

Let’s hope it’s soon!

Oh, pictures from the birthday! Not much since I had to remember 3 essays in that night. Hehe! And I realised…my family, we’re always in our PJs when we celebrate birthdays. ._____.;;

 

 

 

P.S I’ve been regularly checking blog stats lately and they are really weird…because I don’t really expect the two top countries (audience) to be from South Korea and Ukraine?! ._. Oh well, probably some bots. Teehee.